Ambition (n) ; a strong desire to do or achieve something.
Something that is almost always encouraged and yet, somehow, almost always frowned upon. It’s too easy to go into the complexities of male vs. female ambition but feel free to comment about it because YES.
I am a very ambitious person but, maybe strangely, not in work.
I do not dream of furthering my career in the office I work in. I have no desire to try to step my way up to a managerial position and gain more money and authority even though that is what most people I know would determine ambition to be. Work harder, make more money yada-yada-yada.
For me ambition is something else. Ambition isn’t the feeling I have for work but the feeling I have for life.
Ambition is what pushes me to try to be more creative, try to be healthier, try to be happier.
I have always been an ambitious dreamer to the point of others thinking that I’m pretty much delusional but I know in my heart that my dreams and aspirations are achievable because, with ambition, everything is (to a point, I mean I’m never going to be a brain surgeon… brains… gross!)
I don’t like to tell people in real life my ambitions in my life because I feel like with every person I tell it’s another person who will get to say ‘I told you so’ when I fail. Hey! I said I was ambitious, not confident in every decision I make!
My ambitions are all tied in the creative field. Write and be published, make music, write and make movies, among other things. I recently found a role model (to be expanded on in a future post) who has inspired me to the point of renewed ambition and I wanted to just document how this feeling of determination has always been inside me, even if I don’t speak openly about it.
Hopefully one day soon the pay-off’s will start but for now I’ll keep pushing through because I know that if I keep going something good will come of it. Maybe ambition is tied with optimism…